So, you may remember last week I decided to start a little weekly series of love letters to the children and I’m really glad that I’ve decided to do this. We had a lovely weekend together as a family and I’m sure that I’ll be writing more about the charity work that we were supporting on the blog soon, but for now, let’s get started….
Isis Mae, this weekend you absolutely blew us all away. We were singing at Ashton Park for ‘The Big Lunch‘ fundraising together and literally words cannot express how proud we are of you. I felt so privileged to be able to sing a duet with you, it was a very special moment. We sang together at Nana and Grandad’s church once but this was different somehow. Singing a song we’d learned together just this week, and having you introduce me back on stage after you’d finished your set. You were just astounding. Cool as a cucumber, speaking to a field full of at least a thousand people. They may not have all been staring at you but you were looking out at them, fearless, engaging with the audience. I couldn’t be more proud. I know I tell you that’s what you should do and you are the best pupil, you just do what I say, but that doesn’t make it easy. Your self-belief is amazing. I love that you trust that you can do things that make you nervous. I have been singing solos since I was about 7 years old and so have you, the difference is I would be vomiting before and afterward up until the age of 15 with nerves. It was only at that age that I realised I didn’t care what people thought of me, and I could only bring my best. You seem to have caught this already and I hope and pray with every part of me that you never lose this. That your confidence grows from strength to strength. I was amazed that you practiced so hard in the run up to the event too. We all went swimming Saturday but that was the only specific fun task that we did, considering it was half-term. I’m so pleased you all play so lovely together and that you don’t feel like you’re missing out if you’re not off on day trips for half-term. You have just as much fun with your siblings in the home. You learned to swim on your back this weekend. You said that because Shayla could do it, that gave you the final push to learn for yourself. I could literally babble for thousands of words and never express how much you blessed the entire family this weekend. Uncle John was so happy listening to you sing. What a gift that is, to bring such happiness to people. You have an exceptional talent and grace about you that will bring many smiles to people. You hadn’t finished your first song before people were trying to book you for their next event. Always believe in yourself darling girl, we will always believe in you.
Baby girl it was hard for you this weekend with Isis needing to practice so much and being up on the stage. You were so desperate to be up there too. You were made for the stage and I promise you your time will come. Last year when Isis and I sang at a charity event we were able to get you up on stage to sing a song too. It was a lot more of a relaxed atmosphere and this crazy little 5 year old shouting Bon Jovi’s ‘Living on a Prayer’ went down really well. Your little voice is becoming so beautiful too, you were joining in with Isis and I when we were practicing and it was lovely to hear your gorgeous voice. You are super confident and when it’s your name being asked for when people call to book I know that all we’ll need to do is unleash you because you are absolutely fearless when it comes to performing and I love that about you. You can come across so quiet but give you a microphone, some lines to say or a dance routine and you are the star of the show without a doubt. You learned to swim on your back this weekend. You were the reason Isis pushed herself to do it. You were playing so nicely in the pool with Judah too and encouraging him. You were able to have some special time with Grandad when he came. You two have such a wonderful and precious bond and it’s really beautiful to see. I love seeing you and Judah together. You’ve got such an interesting relationship. You are either amazing together and making hearts melt or you bicker. It’s a typical sibling relationship but I just love seeing that dynamic as you’re into a lot of similar things. You two make it seem as though you live together all the time, no-one would know that you and Isis spend time together separately. Of course, that’s the reality and you have a wonderful home that doesn’t involve Judah but seeing you together and your bond, it would be impossible for anyone to pick up on that. I love how you always include him in all your games. You’re a very kind big sister. We had lots of fun cooking together this weekend. You’re the fastest stirrer in the house. Whipping up the guacamole almost as good as the blender could. We love you very much and we miss you terribly when you’re not here.
You were so amazingly brave going down the huge inflatable slide at the event yesterday. You used to be so cautious and I love that about you. You’re still cautious now but you seem able to judge and weigh up dangers really well these days. You can see that it’s high but that it’s safe and off you climb so excited. You were funny singing along with Isis and I while we were doing warm ups, and you kept singing ‘My car has flat tyres’ when we were in the car and Daddy was hoping you didn’t have a strange prophetic gift, but I knew you were just singing your warm ups. You are such a hilarious character. You were incredibly brave in the swimming pool on Saturday, you learned to swim on your back and you were extremely chuffed with yourself. You also told me that you loved going swimming. I asked you why and you told me ‘because you can spit wherever you want’ and took in some water and projected it from out of your mouth. I laughed so hard. You have the funniest reasoning. You kept telling us how much you loved having fun with Uncle John. ‘Uncle John’s my best friend’ you said. I asked you why and you informed me ‘he always plays with me, and we can say stinky things’. You are such a boy, it’s brilliant. I love how you are so beautifully sensitive but still a crazy character that loves everything to do with farts and attacking us while saying ‘Lightning strikes’. Your favourite programme is ‘Dinosaur King’ at the moment and you know all the names of the different dinosaur types. Your memory is staggering. You don’t seem to have a concept of time though, everything that happened in the past, happened ‘last week’ to you. If it was in the morning, or indeed last week, it’s all ‘last week’ to you. You seem to have developed a conscience all of a sudden. You keep apologising for things that happened in the past, as something happens to trigger your memory. ‘I’m sorry that I smashed the plate at Nana’s last week Mummy’ (it actually was last week this time). I tell you that it’s ok and you apologised to Nana at the time. I like this new trait and I hope it means that you will soon stop hitting your sister when she has a toy you want, instead of just apologising afterwards. We were shooting some pictures for a campaign we have coming up earlier and you told me you wanted an icepop when you had finished your work. I love that you understand what I do. You told me you want to do my job when you’re older. You want me to teach you how to take pictures. You were snapping pictures of me last night and telling me you were ‘capturing my beautiful hair’. You decided to vlog while I was editing, you were chatting into the camera ‘Mummy taked me somewhere pretty and new today’. You’re so unbelievably sweet. I can imagine your Daddy being like this as a child. I hope this means you’ll grow up to be as loving as he is, if not more. We love you handsome boy.
Our darling baby girl. You are just so funny. You cling to me all the time. You’re like my little shadow and I love you so much. This week you’ve asked me for your own make-up and I couldn’t help but find myself saying yes, so I now have the task of finding something suitable for a teeny toddler that doesn’t make me cringe but satisfies your desire to play at being like Mummy. You kept asking me to put your hair to one side in a bobble which is often how I wear mine and telling everyone that you ‘got hair like Mummy’. The funniest thing you did this weekend was deciding you were going to teach yourself to swim. You were literally pushing Daddy and I away as you were spluttering in the water because you wanted to do it yourself. It was scary at first until you clicked what you were doing. Oh my goodness it maybe only took you seconds, but those seconds watching you only just keeping your head above water felt like hours. You would hit us away if we tried to help ‘leave me now Mummy’ you would say. I had my eyes glued to you following you like a hawk the entire time we were in the pool. You were jumping in off the side, which inevitably took you under the water but you were absolutely unphased. You’d bob back up with your arm bands in your own sweet time and take yourself off to do it again. You were unbelievably brave and really I’ve got to say it, incredible. Daddy and I were literally awestruck. Not to be left behind by your brother and sisters you also were pleased with yourself as you learned to swim on your back too. Your vocabulary is astonishing. You told Judah how to do his drawing earlier ‘if you put some stickers here and then draw a dinosaur that will be awesome’. You said ‘awesome’ with such excitement. I just love everything about who you are becoming but also know that we will need to keep our eyes glued to you as you are not deterred by anything and dangerous things seem enticing to you, like most toddlers. You weren’t at full health this weekend, we had to sit in the bathroom with steam quite often. It only seems to play up at night otherwise we would’ve taken you to the GP by now. We have also been giving you your inhaler as and when you need it. I hate when you’re unwell, but you still always carry on the same. You just may toddle a little slower, but not by much. You really are amazing, I pray you never change.