Today was the most stressful day I’ve had in a long time. We had decided last night despite my anxiety that we would travel down to Worthing on Tuesday and allocate today as a rest day for me, so that I would be ready to do the 6 hour drive (not including stops) with 4 children on my own. I felt happy with our decision, but awoke to a text from my mother-in-law with a different suggestion for us.
After a lot of back and forths, we had come to the conclusion that they didn’t want us to come down, we weren’t welcome for whatever reason (this would be very out of character) and I was getting so stressed out with all the extra thought processing whilst I was supposed to be resting. We decided we would just forget travelling down altogether.
When we finally spoke to James’ Dad on the phone, we realised they really wanted us to come. They had set up the whole house ready for our arrival and had even slept on the sofa bed downstairs the night before as they didn’t want to ruin the room they had prepared for us. The truth was that they really wanted us to come down, but were trying to balance that out and not make us feel pressured as they were aware that I have been having some anxiety issues and whilst James is looking for a job there are financial pressures. This had resulted in us being so confused with all the alternatives we kept being offered and thinking we weren’t wanted. Bizarre.
Anyway, that was finally cleared up and we set about preparing to come down. I have had a dreadful cold, maybe, just hayfever, hard to tell as I can’t take any antihistamines with breastfeeding Eden.
The children enjoyed a relaxed day watching movies and performing shows for us. The girls decided that as they weren’t have a ‘cute girls hairstyle’ today, they would give Judah a ‘cute boys hairstyle.’ So funny, he loved it and kept it in all day. James and I called it ‘the boo’ as that’s what he reminded us of, from Monsters Inc.
The rest of the evening was spent packing, so hardly an action packed day of fun for the children, but they still had a lovely day. Sometimes, I feel so much pressure to make every day exciting for them. I guess that’s what us mum’s do in the Summer Holidays, but especially for the girls as in the future we would aim to go away somewhere with them, like the year we went to Butlins. When you go away there’s always entertainment for them, so you don’t have to think, or feel guilty because they’re entertained. It doesn’t do them any hard to have a relaxed day every once in a while.
‘The Princess‘ made me laugh so much with her idea of packing. I told her it would be cold and this is what she packed in her trunky. I guess a princess can never be underprepared for potential royal engagements.
I downloaded ‘Turbo’ onto the iPad incase the children were bored in the car. I’ve not seen it, so hoping to get chance myself at some point. Ignoring my anxiety, I was prepared to travel the next day.
James and I got to bed very late and I set my alarm for 3:30am tomorrow. This didn’t leave much time. Not the best of days, but hey, this is a realistic account of our blended family life.
*pictures displayed are just random photographs I captured today, as opposed to details of what we were up to. Apologies for a boring blog day.